Sunday, June 12, 2011

e...go...

A guy ,sitting on the driver seat. Another guy sitting beside him. 2nd guy says, yaar bag le aa, tu bhool aya. 1st one says, chod na...kahan gaadi beech me khadi karke jaunga... 2nd one... abe ek min to lagega, le aa na...
1st one.. main nahi la rha.. tu le aa... main jaunga to dikkat ho jayegi...

then the 2nd one says... abe tu dikkat ki vajah se nahi ruka, tu ruka hai ego ki vajah se. (angry he was!) then the 1st one drove the car,didn't bring the bag. Both quiet for a moment.

I was the driver, and ankur khurana was sitting beside me. I don't think he realizes the size(!?) of favor he had just done to me. I kept thinking about this for the whole day. He was so very right!
This was such a small incident. After this, i realized what this ego is.. Almost everywhere, in every conversation, (or rather, argument), it used to come before my eyes, blocked my mind. Everything that was said was just to prevent my ego from getting hurt, like 'searching' for reasons to prove myself right just because i spilled it from my mouth.
Very much in control from my side now, but it still happens. Still I realize after some time... and I don't like that feeling.
Many others too 'suffer' from this. I don't know if they know about this or not. I have met some who know it, but they are still continuing with it. I didn't ask why, (or may be I couldn't, don't remember why). I met one, who says ego honi chahiye, nahi to self respect khatam ho jaati hai. (I still don't understand what self-respect is!) I couldn't understand what he said. And as always, I didn't ask... Tell me if u have the answer...

I was quite happy to find something in me that 'I' hated, and I have the thing quite in control. (I still wonder how can people list out their 'negative' points! seems Meaningless! but i found one though...)


I hope many believe that ego is something that should be eradicated. It causes very much irritation sometimes when somebody is arguing with me, producing illogical logic. More is caused by realizing that I myself irritated somebody :P

Friday, June 3, 2011

destiny?

maktub!! (for those of have read the Alchemist) i.e. , its written, you can't change it. What has happened had been written in your destiny long ago, its written on your hands, on your forehead, and nobody knows where else! Its destiny!
Once again... Why??
Why do we say its destiny? Why has it been decided long ago?And who decided it? (of course God!... who?) But even if it is decided, how do you know it?
See its simple probability. You toss a coin, their are 50% chances each for head and tail. This doesn't need formal education, an illiterate (as defined by constitution) can see that its true.We can bias this coin, but putting some weight or something (that might require some literacy!) , so that there is 75% chance for head and 25% for tail.But still, it doesn't ensure that only head will come, there is also some probability for tail.

That's what it is in life that i see, everything is a probability. Agar gaadi 50kmph pe chal rahi hai to kuch chances hain accident hone ke, aur kuch chances hain nahi hone ke. Agar speed 120 kar di, to accident hone ke chances badhe hain (i hope u can see all the reasons for that..). This also doesn't mean ki accident ho hi jaayega. Aur agar ho gaya to kuch chances hain ki maroge, aur kuch chances honge ki bach jaaoge. (ye to conditions pe depend karega na..).
Bas agar accident ho gaya, to ye kyu kehte hain ki yaar kismat me likha tha.. ye kya baat hui. agar 50 ki speed pe hua tab especially yahi kaha jaata hai.
some think "accident hona hoga to 50 pe bhi ho jaayega, main to 120 pe chalunga". Ye sochke 120 pe chala rhe ho to yaar bewkoofi hai, because probability of accident to badh rahi hai... mar jaaoge! Agar ye pata hai ki chances badh rahe hain, aur mastibaaji me chala rhe ho, then i don't mind, because that's one's own choice :)

Ek aur cheez hoti hai, luck. Bad luck, good luck. Accident hua, Mera pair toot gaya, bad luck. Nahi toota, to good luck. We are defining luck as if it has been predetermined, par ye vo cheez hai jiska control hamare haath me nahi hota. It is almost impossible to 'bias' somethings.
If luck is defined for things that are not in our hands, and it is not said that it has been set by God or somebody... i don't mind.