Make myself better?

What can this thing possibly mean... 'Make myself better'? One more thing that has been forced upon us.

The only thing that I can be, is myself! How can better or worse be defined? The problem is, from the start itself we are given the valuable advice of being a better person, and some points which I must follow for being better. I should think this, I shouldn't think that, and all that. That takes away what I am, from me. If we were left undisturbed since our birth, not a single thought to pollute our mind, and we were left to just learn from our own experiences, then we would have been the best persons, and not just the better. But I don't know how to do that, doesn't seem practical sometimes.

A person who doesn't care about others is not worse than the one who does, a person who cries when he sees somebody else in pain is no better than the one who might just laugh. But we have not been taught so. People have bent our minds in a direction where they wanted, whatever might be their purpose, but our minds are now at unrest. They have defined 'good things' and 'bad things' for us. And, alas, we have followed.

Read somewhere: "I don't change, I just become more of myself." That is the only criteria of being better, according to me. Some people see their aim as becoming a better person day by day. But I am quite disappointed to see that their criteria is as defined by others.

Either you are Optimistic, or you are not.
Either you respect somebody, or you don't.
Ether you love somebody or you don't.
and so on. These are the things which your 'heart' tells you. Or in correct words, your 'intuition' tells you. You just 'know' what you want! These 'wants' make us 'us'.
But we have to force ourselves to be ourselves. What could be worse.

PS: One more thing that be done, according to me, is to be a bit more 'logical'. To not have contradicting beliefs. i.e. To believe in only the things which can be deduced logically. If you don't do it, you already contradict yourself.

These are called...coincidences.

I and my 3 friends are talking in pizza hut. All about the magic and stuff that might exist around us. One woman comes in, with center-shock type of hairstyle, a tilak and three white horizontal lines on the forehead. Black clothes, kind of a gown, and a maala around the neck. We could easily call her a tantrik. (According to 'rights of admission reserved' she shouldn't have been allowed inside :P) We were surprised. Staring at her and smiling. Would you say that since we were talking of the similar supernatural kinda stuff, that would be the reason for the arrival of our tantrik? We talk about this stuff many times, but this happened only once! So, a coincidence.
One more thing happened, of which I am not sure I remember too well. The bill amount at the pizza hut was '786'! (this is some holy number of muslims afaik) . That bill was in my friend's pocket. Rainfall on our way back, and the digits 7,8 and 6 got washed away in the rain :D

 There is a friend, who is a 'jain'. Pigeons are related to jains in some way i don't know. And he says, that every week on a particular day a group of pigeons visits his house :D (Though I believe he was lying to prove his point, that god exists :D)

Let's Rock it \m/

I went to mehandipur balaji. And of course, a don't believe any such thing exists. I went there, and saw women doing weird stuff with their heads and hair. A huge crowd going mad for darshan. There was this belief that when you are exiting the temple, you throw everything you have in your hands behind your back, and run out of the temple without looking back. But I did look back ( :P ) many times. While returning home,
1) I got the news of my result :D
2) The result was a disaster.
3) I couldn't see my result because I was not home.
4) I reached home, and my internet wasn't working.
5) My PC was not working.
6) Some stuff had happened to electric wires, and the electricity was also kind of irritating.
Balaji is known for its 'prakop', which might have resulted in these 'bad things' happening to me.
But I still call these things 'coincidences' :D

the expression

I had a plan to go to vaishnodevi. 6 of us. Tickets were to be booked. I was suffering from high fever and back ache that day, but I still went to watch a movie. (Rab ne bana di jodi, vo bhi is halat me!) I went to see the doctor on my way back. He declared Chicken pox. Chicken pox is known as 'maata' in Hindi,I guess  the same maata that sits at vaishnodevi causes chicken pox. I couldn't go to vaishnodevi of course. It is said, that you'll visit vaishnodevi only when maata calls you :D Mera katta ho gaya.
It is also said that chicken pox happens only once in life, or at least after a gap pf 20 years because the anti bodies remain in the body. But maata made an exception for me. I was suffering from the disease the 2nd time. (Doctor said nowadays it can happen the third time too. The disease is quite irritating. So, I shouldn't plan another visit to vaishnodevi :D)

Nothing else has ever happened with me that could create the slightest of the doubts.

Do what you Love??

I'll still not be a broken anda

 It would be the best for me if I can pursue the thing that I love doing, professionally. I would be given money for enjoying myself!
But does it mean that that is the only thing I must pursue to earn money? else I would perish?

We would usually like to follow our love because it would lead to success! (here, success=fame + money) Assuming that you are good at what you love, there is some probability that you would reach success. But for that probability to be high, we do need to consider others factors too..

You need to be ready for struggle, you must be passionate for success so that you do not leave your battle before reaching your goal which here is success, you need to keep in mind that there are thousands more like you in the same field who might be ready to struggle, you need to see whether others are interested in your passion or not, whether you make the right choices at the right time, meet the right people at the right time, whether or not you are farsighted and so on... many of them.. But the excessive want of success seems to be the most prominent to me.

If you want to do the thing that you love, you can do it anyway, while doing something else as a profession. If you crave to be famous for that particular thing, the you are wanting success, not following your passion.If besides you passion, you are also craving for success, then you can use the passion to pursue the success! Then come all those suggestions of being optimistic, not losing hope, fight till the end to reach your goals and so on..

Now comes another thing. If we don't pursue our passions professionally, then we would be doing something else for money. Something, that we do not love but we are good at. If you do something that you are good at, I don't think you would mind doing it. And that may also lead to money. (That's what I would be doing :P)
I would not be doing something like this if I'll not be able to show it to anybody. I'll be doing this thing only if others will admire it (if I like admiration) or they give me money (if I like money) or both (if I like both). And in all these cases, I would be satisfied, I believe.

We invest something, to get something we want. The point is, whether we like the investment or not. If we do, nothing's better.

(It might seem that I am seeking excuses for not-struggling, and there's some negative thinking I am promoting here, but I don't think that that is the case.)